Where have I been?

Head down and pushing forward with life. We've had a lot of changes hit the SAJ household in the last few of months. Major life adjustments that will take a long time before it feels normal. . . well truth be told it will never be normal but I guess I should say a long time before emotions are not so raw. I've tried to post here and there but it's been hard. But my inspiration posts have motivated me to to keep going despite. So that's that!

As I reread this I realize IT sounds terribly awful and IT was awful. My little family is still in tact. Mr. Handsome, myself, Jai and Seth. I struggled with whether or not to share out of respect for Mr. Handsome. And I dared not ask him because well . . . he lost his dad back at the end of January. Sudden, devastating. Just doesn't make sense. Obviously that kind of pain has rippling effects hence the spotty post as I tried sticking to my vow to post more often. But life comes first. Not that the blog is not part of my life but you get my drift. Anyhoo normalcy is subjective and up to interpretation. What once was normal is now being redefined. My husband has amazed me with his strength. And how despite his pain and feelings and his cloudy head space he has NOT ONCE let it disrupt mine and the kids day-to-day. The exception being the weekends and weeks while he was in NY during his dads illness. He still smiles, laughs, entertains, disciplines (the kids, not me HA!), indulges, listens. . . continues to live. I can't say that I would not have been a blubbering shell of an individual for the last 4 months. Mr. Handsome has his moments and to be expected but I'm just surprised by how well he is handling the situation. Loves him more for it.

So there you have it. Now that I've gotten that out. Perhaps we get back to our regularly scheduled programming huh?